A Satisfied Seeker, Nancy Park

I was never a religious person but I was always searching for reality. My family has a very colorful history in its search for the ultimate belief. We started off as nominal Buddhists, then became charismatic Catholics and then, conservative Presbyterians. Eventually however, as a child, I knew that there had to be a higher existence beyond what my parents believed. As I grew older this rang more true in my being as I realized man's thirst for satisfaction.

Having been a Christian most of my life, I went to many different Christian gatherings searching for something that would satisfy this deep longing in my soul. I had so many questions and doubts concerning my existence, the world, the motives of God, and His plan for the whole creation. The idea of heaven never satisfied me. I just couldn't get myself to believe that God would be so shallow. I didn't want the God that I believed in to have such low goals for Himself and for me. I couldn't help but feel that He had wasted His time and my life in creating such a vain system of existence. I desperately wanted, needed, and expected something more. I gave the Lord an ultimatum: either He reveal Himself to me or else I would take His easy salvation and do nothing more for Him because there was nothing more to know.

Then one day I found some Christians on the UCI campus. Slowly but surely, in a period of two years, the Lord revealed Himself and His purpose to me through this group. I saw that God also had a need and a heart's desire to be expressed in His creation, man. He desired to become completely one with man, He as the Head and we as His Body. Slowly the Bible that was such a mystery to me was opened up in such a way that I've never seen before. My Christian existence was revolutionized and all my questions were answered. I especially appreciated the oneness of the Body and the oneness of the Church. I feel so fortunate that the Lord has brought me to see His whole plan and for bringing me to be in it in a practical way in the local churches in each locality. I'm thankful to God that I can be a part of God's plan the way it is revealed in the Bible. I can say that now I don't care for man's concepts or for his attempts to understand God. I have given my life to God's divine plan and the truths revealed and opened up to me in the Bible.